100 posts

already. I found an essay. My first essay in English 101, about how I got in love with Debussy. I didn't know I could write like that!

Where did the fire go?

detour.

broke off from daily routine of utter boredom, went to OU, got filled with joy, then fury and sorrow towards the end of the day.

used to it.

not a person in good terms with words, english, and emotions, i've decided my blogposts will never exceed this line.

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done.

pictures, up next.

pictures.

TASK #1

is to clean up my room! Yay!

Progress so far today: 10 % q(-_-q)

Boohoo.

But clean up my room, clean up my heart. 8D

Task #2 awaits! I'm gonna go to the kitchen again after so many years of spoiling! Teehee. 0///0

my holiday plans

may shock everyone but

i plan to stone all month.

HAHA. Gotcha. It seems to be what someone like me would do but I've decided to get productive!

things to do (musts)

-read up on organic chemistry (hugs and kisses! teehee.)

-download loads and loads of songs (well almost done with all the awesome songs in my player, imagine, 100+ downloaded in 2 days)

-read nick hornby! teehee.

-go on the treadmill (no more dreadmill because it makes me forget certain *ahem* stuff) everyday

-drive people here and there (boring!)

-learn to play a few songs on the piano or guitar (: (one done! whee! loves.)

-try to take good and cute pictures again! hehe.

-must get mr loo bang hean to give me classes WHEEEEEEEEEE :D

-clean up my room! gah.

-love james morrison more.

-love john mayer more.

starting now i'll never know your name

starting now i'll never feel the same

starting now i wish you never came into my world

starting now-ingrid michaelson

ingrid michaelson

makes me feel IT.

very;

very very satisfied and happy 'cause its starting to fade again! (:

i'm starting to think

that you're lying to me!

eat your own words! think back and you know what i mean! ):

guess in the end i can't trust anyone anymore.

I hereby:

thank Calculus finals for providing me 1 hour of distraction from you.

i never felt this way before;

it kinda SUCKS.

for after those days i thought it faded; just like the rest, that i thought i had

but then you just had to suddenly pop up

catch me defenseless

trust me i did everything to defend because i knew i was gonna see you

but not this way

sometimes i

wished i was blind when i see you

wished i was deaf when i hear you

wished i was nose-less when i smell you, shit

and dammit everytime you walk by, i feel like a freak

because you smelled fucking good

and i curse you for appearing for the best times i have

when i was happy and forget everything

and that you distract me from everything

i thought it was gonna work

that its best that i avoid you exclusively

but whenever i do that

you just had to appear

fuck you

fml

and you almost made me screw up my first calculus question today

until calculus wins

FINALLY

once i was distracted from you

and then i was cursed with thoughts of you for the rest of the day

fml (:

music: james morrison - this boy (on endless repeat, on windows media player, on fake ipod, on real player, and on my mind)

do you know me?

do i know you?

i feel

that this is not exactly the right time to blog.

-countdown: 14 hours and 20 minutes to chem finals-

Okay, enough said. It's so damn fucking nostalgic I feel so mellow now.

I went to the 12th floor where our classrooms are, at night. It was deserted. Only me and Wei Quan who was kind enough to accompany me to go smuggle water.

Frankly I would like to go there again at night, alone. The memories just rushed to me. Emo as it is, I walked through the corridor, savoring every air molecule ADPians breathe everyday, staring down all sights we see everyday, and this weird feeling of satisfaction and mushiness came up.

Well, it wasn't exactly the last day here. But the last day there this year. The feeling's definitely gonna change when I go back.

Some things are just gonna be missing. Well not missing but buried inside.

They just became "used-to-be"s.

Ah, the nostalgia.

WHAT THE GUCK

AM I DOING?

it:

means something,

you know.

adorable (:

Fucking emo much? (:

I'm watching some "aww"-ish soap and I think I'm having fantasies.

Ha-ha. When there's two quizzes and two projects to deal with. Awesome.

You. Cute. Ha-ha.

Blush.

Wipes blush. Omg. I need to get sane.

Wanna go watch 2012!!!!! :D

Truth for Truth is a funny game. Hahaha. (:

And heck yeah! Dream date is so in a book store! You guys have no idea how sweet it can be! :P

I hope I don't screw up in the upcoming presentation! Gah. Need to get socially normal much?

Shit man. Fucking YouTube just failed on me. No more soaps. :'(

Getting down to work, now!

jya

some stupid stuff.

being sensitive IS stupid

and that's why i am stupid

some people just never get it, and some people will not care to think about it

some people are just not sensitive enough to get it, and some people just are afraid to get it

some people just make things up in their minds, and some people just wants everything to be fucked

so actually its all the fault of nothing

that i fell

and stopped

and didn't wanna get up

and maybe i should kill my blog

its just some disposal area for my shit :(

why do people fight to say 'i suck'

why do people keep saying sorry

why do people just neglect

why do people just don't care

why do people just go on Facebook to much

shit is all around

all you have to do is open your eyes and see it

it IS there.

appreciate life.

I've been dead on my blog. Ever since like, eww, a week ago.

Ha-ha. It's just so not me. But tryna make a major change here. (:

Even though my attempt to abstain (emphasis: attempt) from logging into facebook forever failed miserably-horribly after just one, two days or so, just like how Dre attempted (heavier emphasis: attempted) to fast on his urge to mock our dear utterly mockable Ikhsan d: (Ikhsan: Sorry! Hehe. You're meaner D:), I have decided to stop being such a facebook addict. I still log in though. But I won't be on like 24/7. Ha-ha. We'll see, Amy Tee!

It's really been a week. It felt like forever. Heh, well forever ended. Time to live happily ever after. OkaywhattheheckamIsaying. (: Major change in life seems fresh and tasty. I feel better already and all ready for battle. Fight for mother Earth people!

Here's a personal dedication (shortened) to all my friends in college. I appreciate every single one of you. You are you. Irreplaceable means irreplaceable. I love you guys.

Justine. Ikhsan. Faiz. Dre. Rebecca. Samantha. Faisal.

Thank you guys. (It's really shortened but) I just wanna say thank you for everything. Especially 3 of you! (:

Never apologize for anything you NEVER do, Faiz. Hehe. Yes I emphasize that.

-to be continued-

i don't want

what is this feeling

obligation to live

when will it end

im starting to get impatient

im out of ways to comfort

your tears finally ooze out

i hope my blood oozes out

and compensates everything